Someone once told me "think before you act." With time I have become an over analyzer. I always think too much about every possible outcome to every situation. I'm forever looking for the clearest point so I don't get hurt. I think I need to just make choices and see where they take me. Even when I think about things I never prepare myself for the actual outcome. I usually end up hurt anyway. So I waste time to not even prepare myself for what really happens.
I finally got what I've been waiting for. My friends are looking to reconcile and I couldn't be happier but I feel like its too good to be true. Like something is going to come and take it away. I've already reconciled with my best straight friend, and I just wish he would connect with me more often. Now my other friend who I hadn't talked to in 2 years, who is by far the closest friend I have ever had, wants to reconcile. I just don't want him to change his mind. I feel weary. I don't feel like he wants to intentionally hurt me, I don't even think he has it in his mind to turn this but I feel like its just going to change the moment I get happy again. Consider situation over analyzed and now I'm just gonna take the plunge.
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